My year of rest and relaxation (i've never been relaxed EVER)
TW ED My school year is coming to an end and I am now realizing that I've lived the Ottessa Moshfegh fantasy, 8 months of my life just slipped right through my fingers without even noticing. This is the rapid documentation of it all, i did forget a lot of things but i don't write as much anymore and my memory is fucked up so that's all i have for now. Beware these are the thoughts and complaints of a very disturbed girl. It's September I'm depressed but I remain hopeful, I have to be. I made one of the biggest choices in my life and i can't turn back now. I try my best to go to classes and socialise but the truth is I'm losing it and I just ghosted my therapist because my schedule was too tight, back when I cared about being present and stuff. As for him. He keeps making his random comebacks in my life but i just let it be he's not mine to care. October is just beginning and I already miss high school, I didn't think that would be something that I w...